Allysiakecik

2011-10-27T13:27:00.002+08:00

Late Afternoon bloggers. Finally I gotta access my blog. Totally Forgot my password. Not till i glance at edan's face and poof the password appear. Muke edan ade magic ah. Instantly remember. Update what is needed to past time since edan is sleeping on the sofa at my hall. Penat Berkerja kan katenyaa. Blerg!

Tomorrow is 28 of october and We turned 22months old. Kinda fast. Thru those ups and downs Relationship downhill. Yet we managed to retrive everything and syukur alhamdulillah. We are on the right track now. May this relationship last till eternity. Insya-allah.

Enough of relationship. Currently am jobless. Finding a new job. A admin job i could say. I want some office hour timing lah. That's why. Hopefully i gotta land myself with a job pretty soon. In need of work urgently. :(

Till my next update which i have no idea when. Bukan ade orang bace pon blog aku. Dah mati. Nak kena tanam jer.

2011-09-21T15:21:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone. Finally after so long of not blogging. Decided to blog back. To kill time. Life have been pretty much great and a bitch to me. Been thru alot of shitx in the Fasting month. But i know somehow things that happen, makes me a strong person now. Now im happy with my close ones around me.

As i mention that i went thru alot of obstacles in the fasting month this year but somehow my doa have been answered. Although it's still unclear of the status wise, but i'm happy being with edan now. He change alot. Like i say, Allah answer my doa. Syukur Alhadulillah, He changed to a whole lot better person than before. Not that he's not good in the past, just that he's being extra better now. Hopefully he stay this way. I am happy with the progress he made. Atleast he make the effort to change and prove to me. Although it's still soon to tell, yet i believe he really change for good. People have their imperfection and do make mistakes. I believe i should give him another chance to prove me wrong about stuff. He's really putting alot of effort in it. & good thing is he's trying his best to managed his time between work, family, close friends, me and family. Which is a good start too. Cos he wasn't like this before. Insya-allah with the doa i said before i sleep, things will be better for us. Insya-allah.

I should stop bragging now. Shall continue watching Mohabbatein. Till then. See ya.

I want our relationship to be like Tom & Jerry.

No matter how many times we fight,

We wont be apart.

The only one who have been tolerating most of my mood and sticking thru every shit i made. Accepting my flaws and imperfections like how i accept his.

2011-06-21T21:03:00.000+08:00

Welcome back kepohpeople. Im back to blog again. Miss blogging. Hope this will last and not my semangat 5mins please. Will update this blog as often as i can

I'm coming home

2011-06-05T05:02:00.000+08:00

blog is dead!

2010-11-27T21:22:00.002+08:00

Guess who's back. Back again. Anyone misses me? Hands up please. But i guess none misses me. Who cares. Anyway, Life have been great so far. Pack myself with work. Rather than staying at home and waiting for weekends to come like fuck. Back to work at nike wisma. A great place to work. So heaven. Even my old workplace does not feel like this in the past. HAHAHA.

I promise to update this dusty blog of mine often. See lah. My desktop brokedown and i have yet to call the person to come down and get it fix. Once i shift house then i call that person lah. Yeah am shifting again. Where? It shall be a secret. But the good part was it's freaking one stop from dearest new crib. Baru nak feeling jaoh lah. But fat hope. Boohoo.

Oh ya 2 and a half hrs more to my 11mths with dearest boyfriend. So fast meh. Haiyaaa.

2010-10-20T19:21:00.003+08:00

20.10.2010.

As special date for someone. Someone who is really special to me. Someone who's always been there for me. Thru thick and thin together. Someone who's have been giving me those love that i need although at times he's sucha loser at being romantic and egoistic. Someone whom i see as my present and insya-allah the future.

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY DEAREST GAGAP.
May All Your Wishes Come True.
A Year Older, A Year Wiser.
May You Be Bless With Endless wealth
& May You Grow Old With Me.

Eh wrong. But can lah. May you put your ego aside and somewhat think about other people feelings too. Including myself and not your bike 24/7. Sebelum i bakar itu motor baek you layan i. Okay i'm mean. But that's the truth. Your birthday present will be pending til wednesday alright. I love you so much. 2 more mths and we will make that tiny 1yr. Just hang on to those obstacle that ALLAH had created for us. Remember i may be chatting with my other guy friends, but that doesn't mean i flirt with them and likes them.

Hanya kau yang aku CINTAI. Sumpah. :)

Am missin you

2010-10-05T01:26:00.001+08:00

Dear dearest,

The next time round before Doing anything silly kindly look to your surrouding. Not u alone suffer. Me too suffer. How I freaking miss you. Those sleepless night I had. Those nights where I can't heard your voice before falling asleep. Those morning where I didnt receive morning msges you. Those countless secrets cries I had.

I'm not sure how important i am in ur life, but to tell you the truth. You are really important in my life. Beside my family ofcos.

Am really needing you right now. Am really needing those warm hugs of yours to put my nightmares away.

Shall stop for now. Or else i cry. Baby! I truly fucking missing you hell much!! And I know you do too. That's why you gave a kiss on my cheek for some super long time before u leave for 17 days. Come home soon. It sucks without you! Seriously.

Boring sunday

2010-10-03T17:01:00.001+08:00

I miss you so much! Cepatan dong keluar nya! Gwe Udah enggak tahan Ini rindu loh! Aku cinta banget dey sama Kamu!

2010-09-25T09:40:00.000+08:00

"At night, when I miss you, I scoot to one side of my bed, leave an empty space and imagine you sleeping next to me"

2010-09-15T00:00:00.002+08:00

WILL BE BACK TO UPDATE.
AKU SUDAH MALAS.
MIGHT AS WELL I CLOSE DOWN THIS BLOG.
TILL THEN

2010-08-28T22:56:00.002+08:00

Today is 28. Us turn EIGHT.
Happy 8 monthsary dearest theodore.
I don't need expensive gifts to make me happy.
I don't need billions of money to make me happy.
All i want is you right here beside me and that makes me happy already.

I'm thankedful to have you in my life. I thanked ALLAH for sending you to me.
Words can't describe the love i had for you. Only ALLAH knows.

I will be waiting for the day. In 1 1/2 wk time baby.

GREATEST THING IN LIFE IS FINDING SOMEONE WHO KNOWS ALL YOUR MISTAKES, WEAKNESS AND FLAWNESS BUT STILL FINDS YOU COMPLETELY AMAZING.

2010-08-23T23:49:00.002+08:00

Dearest.

I miss you wraping your arms around me. I miss those kick butt sessions with you. I miss kissing you before i went to bed. I miss those short msges you left for me. I miss talking to you. I miss you bully-ing me till i cried. I miss being pampered like a kid by you. I miss those catching session with you. I miss going out with you. MOST IMPORTANTLY, I MISSES YOU SO MUCH.

Two long wks without you by my side really hurts. Although i told others that i'm okay. But the truth is i'm not at all. I'm putting a fake smile on my face. I tried cheering myself up by telling myself that you will be back soon, but i failed. I have been thinking about you evasince you surrender. What do you have for pre-dawn. What do you have for break-fast. I bet you are losing some fats. Am big no no to that. Although i sleep with your t-shirt wrap around me but still it's not enough. I am waiting with lots of patience for the day of your release. I really need to be in that hug of yours. That's where i feel safe.

I hoping that i could atleast meet you on wednesday. I really wanna see you badly. Typing all this out really put me into tear. But i'm holding it back. Listening to the songs you gave me really touches me.

In 5 days time we will turn 8mths. I don't care about the days mths. All i care is about us treasuring every moment spending together. TRUST ME I NEVER BEEN THIS SERIOUS IN A RELATIONSHIP. You are the first. You really make a huge impact in my life. & I pray to ALLAH that you stays by me til the last life of mine and yours. Insya-allah. Amin.

2010-07-26T14:05:00.002+08:00

Was on the phone with dearest yesterday when a conversation started. A very silly convo.

Him: Laen kali kalau i buat salah atao i marah2 without reason, u marah i balek okay.
Me: Ah yer. Macam mane nk marah kau balek kalau aku tinggi suare balek, kau ckp asal tinggikan suare. Slenge!
Him: Eh i cakap mcm gituk ke? Takd lah. You salah dengar.
Me: Ade lah. I tao lah. Dah selalu kena b. You mataer i mestilah i tao.
Him: *Laughing away*

Kadang2 berbual dgn dearest boleh heart pain tawoo. Ade suruh aku marah die balek kalau die tengah marah. Tak kena sound asal tinggikan suare dah cukop bagos. Selalu macam gini. Padahal die dah ckp tao dgn aku, kalau die buat salah kena marah die. Tap bile aku marah die tanye soalan cepu EMAS. Macam mane nk marah ne korang bilang aku. Kadang-kadang aku ketawe sendiri tengokkan dekni. Tap tkper lah sayang punye pasal kan.

He's been entertaining my craps all this while. CPR moment when i got bored and i did a cpr on him. Freaking funny. Mother was laughing away when i did that to him. Those kentot directly to each other when together at home. Ape kite buat mesti mother ketawe. Pikir kite badot ah mother. Alamak. HAHAHA.

Soon he will be leaving me for 1 pathetic month. August it is. I will be lonely for sure. Noone to entertain those craps on mine. And surely i will miss his craps. Senang kate everything lah. I will miss you dearly dearest. BUT I'M LOOKING FORWARD FOR END OF AUGUST. That is when dearest will be back. Back from where. Don't ask. I won't tell either. Tak boleh contact tak boleh jumpe. Macam mane ne? Ini lagi teruk dari brunei and taiwan okay.

JUST FUCK AUGUST I HATE YOU.
BUT AM LOOKING FORWARD FOR PUASA. Aku puase okay. Tk mcm orang tuu. HAHAHAHAH

2010-07-25T23:40:00.002+08:00

OMG!! I'm addicted to this song. Have been putting it on repeat mode over and over again. Am gonna give dearest to listen to this song. Yarness. So random update.

THE LYRIC.

Inilah aku apa adanya
Yang ingin membuatmu bahagia
Maafkan bila ku tak sempurna
Sesempurna cintaku padamu

Ini cintaku apa adanya
Yang ingin selalu di sampingmu
Ku tahu semua tiada yg sempurna
Di bawah kolong langit ini

Jalan kita masih panjang
Ku ingin kau selalu disini

Biar cinta kita tumbuh harum mewangi
Dan dunia menjadi saksinya
Untuk apa kita membuang-buang waktu
Dengan kata kata perpisahan

Demi cinta kita aku akan menjaga
Cinta kita yg telah kita bina
Walau hari terus berganti hari lagi
Cinta kita abadi selamanya

Jalan kita masih panjang
Ku ingin kau selalu disini

Biar cinta kita tumbuh harum mewangi
Dan dunia menjadi saksinya
Untuk apa kita membuang-buang waktu
Dengan kata kata perpisahan

Demi cinta kita aku akan menjaga
Cinta kita yg telah kita bina
Walau hari terus berganti hari lagi
Cinta kita abadi selamanya

2010-07-18T00:43:00.003+08:00

It's been sometimes since i update this blog of mine. Macam nak delete ajer. Tap macam taknak pon ade. How ahh. Sooner or later i shall delete this blog of mine for sure. Tengah tunggu mase yg sesuai ajer. I just feel pointless updating this blog every now and then.

Am happy for dearest now. He has officially pass his bike license and second he had officially get a hold of his favourite bike. Am really happy for this love of mine.

So let me just update some random stuff happen starting from thursday.

An unplan meet up with milymeow since she wanted to get herself a wedge and a top at bugis and i was oh-so-damn-bored, i decided to accompany her and spend some time together. It's been a long time since we last met. Meet her at yewtee last cab at around 8 and off to bugis. We talked about everything. Those kutok-ing sessions was great. Laughing our asses off at some stuff.

Once reach bugis we quickly get those things needed for mily and off to pastamania for our late dinner. Yar pastamania. Muke i dgn mily kan muke pastamania. Asal keluar ajer pastamania. Our selection of food is still the same. Creamy chicken. Yummy. Heaven and earth abes. We talked, we cam-whore til 11 before calling it a day. A total of 3 short hours of spending time together can make the both of us crazy. Like real stupid crazy. My laughing gas.

Some pics upload. The rest are on facebook. If ya'all got my acct. If not then too bad lah.

Finally gotta meet my lola hanis after ages of not meeting up. Went to mily's crib to get them wedge. And since dearest was oh-so free, i ask him to send me there. Since dah ade baby ape. Alamak. Afterwhich us(me and dearest) went off jalan-jalan and stop by beach road to fill our empty stomach before going off to marina barrage. Yes marina barrage again after 7 mths.

We saw a bus-stop at marina bay and dearest was like "Eh b turun ah. Tunggu bus." I was like " err bus lambat lah b. Jalan kaki sudah ah." Tengah teringat zaman 7 mths ago where dearest bring me to marina barrage and we walk all the way from marina bay to marina barrage. Those cute memories is still fresh ahyer b. And it's really cute when dearest still remember it. Back to the main story. Reach barrage and we find a spot to chillax for a while. And dearest was like " Eh b dat time tmpt mane ah kite duduk". Hahahaha. Yes we sat at the same place where we first come to barrage and that was like in dec. Tak sangke mataer aku masih ingat. Ingatkan aku sorang. Kenangan dearest wants me to be his gf. Ingat balek aku yg malu. Mati Bahh~ Sat and we talk and start playing this game on the itouch and snap a pic together before going off to tamp before calling it a day. A good meetup with dearest. Thanks baby for making my day. And i had a new hobby and that is gentel perut mataer aku bile on the road. Sungguh syiok. Boncet very nice.

2010-06-23T23:04:00.002+08:00

Went down with mum after maghrib to collect my anklet and guess what? The shop is close. Am alil sad lah. I very semangat wanna use back my anklet but the shop is close. How can like that. Will be collecting it tmr den.

Alil reminder to my friends, tolong takmu ajak aku keluar on the 7th july. Because why. I will be babysitting nanachica's two babys on that day since i offer to look after. As she have something to attend. And since i look kids so much. So ape salah nye tolong kan. Tolong orang dapat pahale taoo. And im very sincere to look after her kids. So yeah. Will conferm with her by next wk. I think it shouldn't be a problem since i have look after allybabybusukmonkey before. So yeah am excited already lah. Hehs.

Am downloading Karate Kid and am gonna watch it again. Never get bored with it lah. Best ape cerita. Orang gile ajer ckp boring. Dunno how to watch. Hehs. Listening to Kiss me thru the phone by Soulja Boy. Lagu tahun lepas. Tap sedap apee. Elehhh. Okae enough bragging. Toodles.

2010-06-23T19:28:00.002+08:00

Hello people. Let me just flashback about my saturday and sunday. Attend cousin's wedding over at b.panjang. Dearest tag along since mum ask too. Teruk kena kacau dgn pakcik aku yer b? Dol smue terkeluar. Padahal name die sedap. So bad lah my uncle. Saw HIM too there. Pfft. So jijik please. Dearest salam-ed him and he mcm nk taknak like that salam. So whatever. Told dearest abt him and don't salam-ed him lah. Not teaching dearest to be bad lah. Just that this kinda person doesn't need to be salam-ed. Pfft. Okae whatever. Sidetrack.

Didn't follow them lelaki side to the perempuan side to angkat nikah. Cos me mum and dearest have some other things to do. Sunday was a very kecoh day for me. It's a killer running here and there in heels. Macam nk buang ajer heels tu. But then again endure the pains and i manage to stay put till the wedding ended. I think i had overcome the scared feelings of kude kepang. Perangai. HAHAHA.

Just enjoy looking thru the pictures lah. There is more in cousin's camera which i have yet to receive.

Sunday's pictures.

Saturday's pictures. Over at lil cousin kaya crib.

Although we are pretty, but still there is a buruk side of us.

Done. ttyl.

I miss dearest very much already. He's working his ass off this week until friday. How sad. Nevermind. No whine.

2010-06-15T13:28:00.000+08:00

"I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out."

2010-06-13T23:33:00.002+08:00

Selamat malam kawan-kawan. Am bored currently. Dat's why i'm updating this blog. Have been spending my thursday and friday with dearest at home since he sleptover my crib. And he's cute enough to sleep beside mum.*Okae ini part tak perlu*. He's too lazy to get out of my room since he's setting up my itouch. Godeh sane godeh sini sampai dearest tertido. Pity him. Thanks baby for setting up my itouch. I love you monkey.

Dearest gotta meet allybabybusuk on friday since this lil brat came to my crib with her dad. Abg boy wanna sleep but this lil girl keep on disturbing abg boy, so end up he have to bring allybabybusuk here. So that he could sleep peacefully in abg room. Nice plan abg. Edan and myself entertain this lil brat. Very penat okay. She's very shy with edan but when we went down, she ask "Where's uncle tam?". Bile dah balek dgn uncle tam sekaly die takot. She's not scared lah actually. Cume malu jer. Maklom lah kan anak sedare saye mentel. Jadi paham-paham jer lah. The cute part was after i bath allybabybusuk and dearest was in my room. So he could see how i dress this lil brat up. Pass okae everything. Sia-sia only i love babies and look after them. Chett. Dearest was asking allybabybusuk to close her eyes since he wanna put some baby powder on her face, she was actually squeaking her eyes and dearest was actually playing with her nose. So small. Penyet also. Very cute. The fact that dearest was actually geram dgn die lah. Dearest suruh die ckp "Pantat kau lah". End up she say "Kepale otak kau lah". Clear cut okae. Padan muke b. Laen kali u ajar die lagi kay. Hehs.

Speaking of which i'm missing that lil brat and dearest badly. Padahal baru jumpe ne due mangkuk on friday. Tap tetap rindu apeeee. Alamak. Dearest is sleeping now. Will be turning in early as i'm feeling tired now. Toodles

2010-06-07T23:53:00.003+08:00

Second post for today. I'm dead bored right now. Am suppose to watch Prince Of Persia since i download it from some random website. Tap belum habis-habis tengok.

Was on the phone with dearest and we talk about some serious business. Chey step business rabak jer. Finally in the 6 mth we know and be together, he told me to be tegas towards him. Bahh~ Insya-allah i will. But in certain things that you do tat i don't like. Like i say. I tak buat benda yg you tak suke. So jangan lah buat benda i tak suke. For now alhamdulillah i can still cope with my surroundings. If i cannot cope, senang ajer. I scream at him only. I never scream or scold him before. Very nice girlfriend right? But just don't let me. Seriously i scream just like my mother. But not to the extend lah b.

Semua orang ade tahap kesabarannya yang tersendiri. Selagi kita boleh tahan, kita tahan. Kalau dah tak boleh itu, alamatnya anda akan mendengar saya terpekik dekat awak. So harap dimaafkan jikalau saya ade terpekik dekat awak satu masa nanti. Saya nak awak paham kesalahan awak. Jika saya tidak membuat begitu, awak tidak akan tao kesalahan awak. Macam awak tegur kesalahan saya jgk. Saya tegur sebab saya cinta sama awak dan saya tak mahu awak ulanginya. Sama seperti awak. Bukan saya free-free suka suka hip-hip-hooyraaaaa nak marah awak. Nanti hari raya saya mintak maaf lagi.

Ingat satu benda. SAYA CINTA AWAK DAN SAYA AMAT MENGAMBIL BERAT TENTANG AWAK. Iloveyousomuch baby.

*MELAYU TAK BOLEH ANGKAT.*

2010-06-07T20:13:00.002+08:00

Sorry for mia-ing for sometimes. Somehow i don't see the need to update this blog of mine already lah. That's why so mundane. I am so gonna rebond my hair just like the above picture again. But this time round my hair is longer abit than usual. Cos i ain't gonna chop it off. Sekarang baru aku tao bertape sayang nye org dgn rambutnye and tends to cry if the hair kena chop off by pakse. So no force needed cos dearest gave me the green light to keep my hair long. So yeah. Long hair for me now. Bangs tetap ade. LOL!

Replying to tags.

idah biler nk out2
Me: LOL! Nanti aku hallo hallo sama kau. Aku tak tao bila babe. :)

Viiva La Juiicy Iloveeyouu B. Okaee, random. Saje je nak tag youu. Muaacks.
Me: I love you too b. You is GILA.

belle hello ! was here anw. lama tk nmpk, main jambu !
Me: Hello belle. Ish ish ish mane ade makin lawa babe. Same ajer lah. Hehs. Malu lah saye.

YUNIS Outing lagikkk kecik! Hehe misses...
Me: Yes yes yes. Have told mily and we are planning for a outing soonest. Will be on friday but date blm tao. Cos i can't make it on weekends. Boyfriend day.

Viiva La Juiicy B! i nak pergi pasar malam! belikan youu feather duster! dah berabuk lah B! kalau boleh i nak belikan youu vacuum sekali! hmph!
Me: Wahhh b. Betul nye marah nmpk you. HAHAHA. Sorry lah i malas lah nk update blog. I kasi you email dgn password i den you update kan boleh? Please. Ini yg buat i makin sayang dekat you. HAHAHAH

AND I MISS DEAREST VERY MUCH. 1 wk already belum jumpe. I wait for you this wk okae. Nk teman you do passport please. Hehs

2010-05-29T21:41:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was 28th May. And that marks edankecik 5mths together.

Happy belated 5monthsary together baby.

I keep thinking of how much i love talking to you. How good you look when you smile although at times i deny it. How much i love your cute laugh when i tickles you. Replying piece of our conversation. Laughing at funny things that you say or do. I've memorized your face and the way that you look at me. I catch myself smiling again at what i imagine. I wonder what will happen the next time we are together and even though either of us knows what the future holds, i know one thing for sure. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. And that i love you so much. No words or sentence can describe the love i have for you.

xoxo

2010-05-26T20:41:00.002+08:00

Will update this blog if i got the time. I am currently busy with some personal matters. I wish his case can drop alil bit lah. Taknak jalan jauh lahh. 7 tahun kau gila ahh. CB! I want my brother back cos there is noone to entertain me at home. Abg sham also cannot tahan entertain me. Baru satu hari dah gila ah abg? Dah lame kan tak entertain adk. Bare with me please til barney release. Abg gila biler layan adk? Den edan yg kena layan gila adk hari2 boleh jadi biolx. Termasok dgn barney dah gilaaaaa.

2010-05-23T23:14:00.002+08:00

Something about you that made me want no other.
Something about you that made me think that there can't be any other.
Something about you that gets me missing you more and more everyday.
Something about you that was making me believe in us.
Something about you that makes me not want to ever let go.

How i really miss those late night calls and text msges. Those goodmorning msges. Everything. I know in a relationship there is no smooth sailing. There will be ups and downs and i shall bare with it and stay put to make this relationship last. I want you to be the last and no others. I promise to be patience and stay strong in the relationship. I believe in this. If you are wiling to be committed in a relationship, that means that you are ready to go thru all those obstacles and be hurt at times. I shall not whine and just go thru this with a open mind. Tomorrow will be a better day. That's what i always told myself.

I love you so much and those sentence won't explain how deep is my love towards you.

We ain't in a fighting terms. Just a piece of my mind to him.

2010-05-23T00:10:00.002+08:00

Alil update is needed in my pathetic blog. Went out yesterday with mother and diyana to bugis to get me a top and bottom. Plus alil earrings. Afterwhich we kill the time by roaming around bugis junction and chill over at J.CO donuts. Added with laughter from us three. A really nice outing with mum and diyana that makes our day.

Went to shengsiong with mother again to get some stuff with ended with alots of junkies from me. Aku kan kuat lapar. So i topup my finger foods and ect. Am loving it. Alil photos update and that's all for now.

Mum randomly say that aku makin bulat. Pandai edan jage. Puji lah anak kesayangan die tu. Tak jealous ponn. Blueks.

2010-05-20T23:50:00.002+08:00

Watch THE LOSERS with dearest & his friend and gf at Shaw Bugis. A good movie. Go watch it. Afterwhich his friend and gf headed back home while me and dearest went to tongseng to have our late dinner. Actually aku sorang ajer. Sebab die kenyang. Chicken rice tak abes and he knows the tande2 of me cannot finish food. Dah pandai. Den we headed back home. A simple meetup with dearest and time spend together. Boohoo. Sukesukesuke.

Next up i wanna watch this.

Because there is Puss in boot which look like babyallybrat.

Sungguh same. With the eyes and perut. Masya-allah. Hehs.

2010-05-20T00:53:00.002+08:00

Will update this blog when i feel like it. Oh fyi, i created formspring for i dunno what reason. I just put it up. Feel free to ask any stupid questions lah. I will try to answer. Limit-limit kalau merepek sangat aku tak layan jer. I feel like deactivate it after 2 wks. Kalau takd orang tanye soalan baek aku tutop kan. Tagbox ade. Baru aku perasan. Tagbox aku macam da mamposx gituk. Make it alive can or not. Bother to come here and read but tag cannot. Nabey. Step marah padahal TAK.

2010-05-18T03:26:00.002+08:00

I'm having insomnia and that's not healthy. I wanna sleep but i just can't shut these eyes off. My body is here but my soul is somewhere else. Am thinking of dearest at this wee hours of time and i just feel that i'm falling in love with dearest over again. Although he didn't do things like those guys do such as romantic stuff, but then again dearest got his own ways in making me falling in love with him over again.

I wanna sleep in your arms cos that's where i feel safe. I love you so much.

Malam-malam so corny ah i. Nevermind.

TAK SUKER TAKMU BACE. SIAM!

Wanna continue watching ANTM cycle 14. Got me addicted.

2010-05-17T22:48:00.001+08:00

2010-05-15T00:39:00.002+08:00

Had a good meetup with dearest. It's been awhile of us going out together. I mean after he came back from taiwan. Dearest was send over to a nearby camp for 2 wks. And it's a 2 days work 1 day off. As dearest offday was on friday itself, we meet up right after his rtt at ssdc. Alhamdulillah he pass. Cepat abes. Nanti can bring me to marina barrage okae. LOL!

After which i was craving for meekuah at beach road. Was really really craving for it. Dearest was GOOD enough to not letting me to eat meekuah. Alasan jaoh. Padahal taknak aku makan sebab aku saket plus when people tend to have cravingsss they will eat alil portion of it and the rest rubbish bin makan. I told him that he can eat for me what. He laugh. Wahhpiang. I was sulking the whole time. Sampai naek cab pon aku sulk ajer. He was trying his best to make me laugh lah. But actually success. Nabey teng-teng tol. Nak nanges pon ade biler tak dapat meekuah. He knows it lah. Dah masak eh b? Dah pandaii. Reach home told mum and cik tuah, they laugh. I was saying mee kuah mee kuah. Sampai msg dearest "Mee kuah Mee kuah Mee kuah Mee kuah Mee kuah". Padahal he was right infront of my eyes. He told mum and she laugh. Kate bestfriend kan sekarang. Pfft. Blueks.

Am waiting for my mee kuah later on since mum is bringing me. Woohoo. Totally gonna send the pic of mee kuah to dearest later on. Told him kalau aku kawin dgn die kan den aku pregnant and mengidam benda, aku rase anak aku nanti keluar air liur keluar jer. Sebab ape bapak die jahat sangat taknak belikan benda yg aku mengidam. Die cakap okae ape nanti anak i keluar lidah die keluar jer. Dengan reaction sekaly die buat. Itu yg buat aku ketawe terus. Nak marah tak jadi. Nak merajok pon tak jadi. Baek.

& the best part was he told me that aku adelah perempuan paling buruk skaly kalau time mengidam. Perangai masya-allah. Buruk abess. Sampai hentak-hentak kaki. Tumbuk-tumbuk die semua keluar. Ini tandanye violent when im craving. Where you know. But i still love you okae kekasihgelapku. :)

2010-05-13T02:14:00.002+08:00

Morning yaw. Am having insomnia every now and then. Totally don't know what's the problem. It's getting pretty annoying. Futhermore, i'm on medication now since im down with a hardcore cough with additional of sorethroat and everything to sum up is the seram sejuk mode. Like you wanna get fever but don't kinda mode. Which i totally am not liking it. Like i say, on medication but still fail to turn in early.

Am listening to 'Kita Ditakdirkan Jatuh Cinta-Spring'. Asal malam ajer dengar lagu jiwang. Asal dengar lagu jiwang ajer malam. Laen macam bunyi nye tu. V old nice song lah. I think this song is when aku dalam perut mak aku atau tak pon tyme mase aku kecik lagi. Am not sure. But betul lagu die sedap.

Okae am typing craps here. Aku sudah bosan bosan bosan bosan. I know that my blog is getting all mundane already. No pictures like previous updates. The lazyness strikes lah ehh. So lazy to update already. I'm more active at facebook. Padahal maken bosan dgn facebook. Facebook is my friend when dearest is away at work or with his friends or ape ape lah. Twitter is my sayang no due cos whenever i feel like expressing my anger. I will just tweet from my phone and send. Update on twitter.

I read back what i have just type out and mostly is shitx. Aku sudah berbual merepek pepek. Aku pon merepek. At times ajer. Macam lah korang tak merepek at times. Takmu bohong. TTYL.

& Aku realise aku belum link orang2 lagi. Nanti lah okae. Bye.

2010-05-11T01:04:00.002+08:00

Morning people. It's 1.02am and it's still early for me to tuck into bed. So i guess it's time for me to update this blog of mine before it turns rusty likes adleyn nur amelina's blog. Boohoo.

Have been finding work via internet. Sending the same resume again and again to different company but still to no call. Have this feeling of giving up but then again, i don't see the different. Either i get a job or continue studies which is a NO NO to me since my mind is all rusty. Lagi-lagi maths. Adoii mak boleh nanges. So yeah will be sending resume to different stupid company which is so racist. All wants chinese. I only can say CHIBYE in chinese. That's can help or not ah? I shall not give up and try again and again till i land myself into a decent 9-5PM jobs.

Miss lady red is here anhd worst till yesterday was the first day and hell yeah it gave me those cramps. I mean those major cramps. Worst still i have to accompany mama to her old friend's wedding. I mean her daughter married. I was totally wasn't in a good mood when the cramp decided to get worst as soon as i arrived at the wedding reception. I wanted to whine and cry but need to control it since it's someone's wedding and i don't wanna spoil mum's mood. Mum was good a playing guessing games with me when i was controling the pain. She knows that her daughter was in great pain when i lost the appetite to eat. I ate alil bit of rice. When there is like lot of foods to be eaten. All got wasted up by my period. Thank you period. I was throwing up the food that i consume when at home.

Reach home i call dearest up immediately and whine cry like a baby. I wasn't embarrassed at all. Complain of the cramp to dearest and cry macam orang mati gituk. While dearest tried to cool me down, i whine even louder. See how dramatic i can be when i'm suffering from cramps. Even worst when mum got back from shop, i told mum to call the ambulance cos i can't stand pain anymore. Mum call dearest up and told dearest that i ask her to call the ambulance and the both of them laugh. See how wicked can mum and dearest be when i was in pain. Mum even told dad barney abg kas and abg sham. And the same reaction they gave was laugh. Funny izzit? Wait till you feel the pain then padan your muke. Abg even told me that no wonder allybaby is so dramatic. Follow her auntie bucuk. How bad can that be ah? I only be dramatic when comes to period alright. Nabeyyy teng teng.

Enough saying about period, Now my mind is blank already lah. Zero. Oh yeah i might be canceling my private course for driving to school mode driving. Since i know it will be v.hard for me to learn private since saye takd experience bawa kereta. Kereta mainan saye tao lah bawa. Boohoo. Physco dad to pay for it since he's gonna get his $$$$$$$$$$ from cpf soon. Woohoo for me lah since i know dad will gave some of it to me. If not i run away ahh. Can ah daddy. Love you. Part give jer love you daddy. Part laen tak. Bahh~

I will end this post now. If not i might be bragging again and again and again. Thanks for reading up till here.

I MISS YOU DEAREST ALTHOUGH BARU JUMPE KAU ON SUNDAY. STILL NOT ENOUGH OKAE. I wonder how is it when kite get married. Aku rase tak jemu aku tengok muke kau hari-hari. Asalkan kau boleh layan merepek aku dah okae lah tu kan b?

OMG! Why am i even thinking about marriage when i have yet to get a job and save money. Miang mode. :)

2010-05-10T13:00:00.001+08:00

2010-05-07T01:36:00.003+08:00

Came across this tumblr which tell about ya horoscope. Tak percaye but still what the thing say about the month we were born is interesting.
SEPTEMBER=PIMP (Mine. But i ain't a pimp yaw. FITNAH ini.)

Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Great in bed. Inner and physical beauty. Doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. A meaningful love life partner. Makes right choices. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Does not harm others. It is all about love and fairness. Easily hurt and hard to recover. Daydreamer and does fullfill. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Knows what to do, to have fun. Unpredictable. Someone to have close to you. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

OCTOBER=HOTTIE (Dearest's.Tap die tak hot ajer. Die handsemzz.)

Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.

A note to dearest.

I love you for who you are and there is no reason to why i love you so much. Loves is blind and you will never find the answer to why you love that person. But all i know is that i love you from the day we be together and that love grows more stronger that before. I wish for us to be together till long. Insya-allah. You accept me for who i am and i accept you for who you are. i thanked HIM for meeting me with you. XOXO

2010-05-06T00:32:00.003+08:00

I have been putting this song "KuIngin Selamanya"-Ungu on repeat mode ever since yesterday night. Have been humming the tune wherever i go. Macam dah stuck kat kepale otak aku. I really love the meaning of the song. Sungguh meaningful gituk loh.

Lyric:

Cinta adalah misteri dalam hidupku
Yang tak pernah ku tahu akhirnya
Namun tak seperti cintaku pada dirimu
Yang harus tergenapi dalam kisah hidupku

Reff :
Ku ingin slamanya mencintai dirimu
Sampai saat ku akan menutup mata dan hidupku
Ku ingin slamanya ada di sampingmu
Menyayangi dirimu sampai waktu kan memanggilku

Ku berharap abadi dalam hidupku
Mencintamu bahagia untukku
Karena kasihku hanya untuk dirimu
Selamanya kan tetap milikmu

Back to Reff

Di relung sukmaku
Ku labuhkan s'luruh cintaku
Di hembus nafasku
Ku abadikan s'luruh kasih dan sayangku

Baby. If you are reading this. This song is for you. Malu lah i nak bilang you.
Saye kan pemalu. Lupe ke. [Macam pahammm]

2010-04-28T00:26:00.002+08:00

Today is 28th. So that marks our 4mthsary together-gether.

Happy 4monthsary baby.
Semoga relationship kite kekal sampai syurga.
(chey syurga pahh. LOL!)

Thanks for being patience with me thruout this 4mths together.
Trying your very best to change me for good.
Trying your very best to make time for me.
Being patience with my craps 24/7hours.

I am happy with you around. You know how to make that smile on my face stays.
You know how to cheer me up with your stupid jokes. & mostly importantly you are trying not to pampered me too much but fails. Without you knowing it ofcos. Nyet!! Thanks baby. I will change for good.

Let have a wrestling session when you come back home alright. Taknak catching kat ruma i. Nanti mama bising lagi macam dat time. Wuhahaha.

I love you. You love me. We are stupid girlfriend-boyfriend. With a great big kick and wrestling from me to you. Won't you say you love me too.
Sweet kan aku? Thank you. Nyett :)

2010-04-27T23:55:00.002+08:00

Date: 23 april 2010(Firday)
Venue: Town & Arab street sheesha :)

Last minute plan to meet up with lil cousin dhee and her fren tash at town. I was late for two freaking long hours. Sorry babes. Aku siap lambat nak mampos. Boohoo. So meet them and we paint those plain nails with colours at far east. Lil cousin dhee belanje jugak. Mentang-mentang dapat gaji kan. Afterwhich we head to bugis as i wanna sheesha and after camwhore. Banyak-banyak tmpt arab street jgk kite pergi. Hah! Went to this place which is TAX FREE and we sheesha-ed til night. Afterwhich we did some snapshot here and there. Only me and tash lah. Lil cousin dhee is the photographer unskill-ed. Huhu. Just enjoy the pictures.

2010-04-26T01:23:00.002+08:00

Burp. Am full due to those mcd junkies. I just realise something. Am putting those pound on the cheek,stomach and butt. How can like that? I wanna grow alil plum but not in the cheek stomach and butt. My mother say my butt is macam kueh pau already. Nabeyyy. I wanna diet ah like that. Can make it or not? Pfft.

Today is monday so that makes it 4 more days left. His last day of camp with be tmr and the other 3 days, he will enjoy himself. I so can't wait for it. :)

Am goin to bed now. No no no later. I only have a total of 4 hours of sleep just now due to those insomniaaaa. I slept at 7 woke up at 11. Pathetic much. TTYL

2010-04-25T02:00:00.002+08:00

I will be back to update about the last minute outing with cousin dhee and her friend tash. In the meantime do drop ya comments. Make my tagbox alive will ya pleaseeee. Don't be shy.

& i ditch plurk for twitter back since i can update my tweet using sms every now and then. Although i go through rough time setting the twitter and everything. Thanks to tiarabangs for helping me out. Sayang you. I see you tmr okae. Hehs :)

I deleted whatever that i updated some times ago. It's the past and i won't wanna read it either. I feel stupid. So deleted it off and start a NEW CHAPTER. What's past is past. Dah terjadi pon. I won't brag about it. I'm loving my life now with my loves ones around. So yeah. You can see me tweet every now and later.

PeeeeAssssss: 5 MORE DAYS TO GO. I'm loving it!

2010-04-23T01:14:00.002+08:00

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This is dedicated to NorShakilla(The lady that is beside diyana)

Happy 19th birthday Hunns.
May all your wishes come true.

Im sorry for sabooo-ing you. Huhuh. Aku tao kau happy kan kena saboo dgn aku n d? Im sorry baby. Laen kali buat lagi okae. Hope you like the mini suprise small kek from us. Although kau tak tao what we went thru when waiting for you you you and only you. Atyra and Diyana kena kejar dengan kucing tepang plus me kena kejar with fat cat. Nak cake kau punye pasal aku lari macam superman. Boohoo. Sampai aku terbongkok-bongkok macam nenek sebab nak suprise kan kau. The wrestling part and the saboo at 12.15am. Ily :)

PEEEEASSSSS: 7 more days to go..

2010-04-20T01:19:00.002+08:00

10 more freaking days to go.
Just 10 more days.
Patience is all it takes.
Time flies really quickly.
Cepat lah 10 hari ini jalan. I really can't wait for your return.
I wanna be in your arms again. Cos i really need it.
Emotional sekejap. Crybaby~

2010-04-17T23:24:00.002+08:00

Have been updating my blog using those pictures with qoutes. Basically i have nothing interesting to update about. Have been spending most of my days indoors rather than outdoors. Basically when i plan something it will never turn out great. Trust me. Like the other day. I can't recall when. Was it wednesday or thursday. Had plan nicely a swimming date with adleyn nur amelina at yishun complex but the plan was cancel at a last minute because of the oh-so-nice weather which spoil it. How great. Was alil dissappointed but it's okae. There is always a next time right ad? Perharp when them mens returns, we shall go out soon together again. It's been sometimes ya?

Dearest is returning back to singapore in 2 wks time. Yeah fast enough? Cume allah sahaje yg tahu bertape seksa nye hati ini nak tunggu 3 minggu. Patience patience patience. That's what i always remind myself. Hell yeah.

Been sending resume here and there but still no reply at all. How pathetic could that be uh?? Nanti biler sudah dapat keje, start lah sane sini call. Nabey. I badly wants a 5 days work and off on weekends. Call me cerewet. I ain't bother. Tentang kerja memang aku cerewet. I wanna make full use of my cert. Buat ape ade cert kan kalau taknak gunakan. Baek buang kat tong sampah. Pfft.

Will stop here. It's really good enough if korang dapat bace sampai sini. Korang da waste tyme bace pon. TTYL

2010-04-17T00:58:00.002+08:00

2010-04-15T02:09:00.001+08:00

2010-04-13T20:51:00.002+08:00

Cepatan dong balek. Lagi wait i count.
18 more days. So long ah? Pfft

2010-04-12T00:58:00.002+08:00

Spend my sunday with mother. Off to lot 1 to get some stuff before heading back home. Nice time spending with mum. Get a text messenge from dearest. Am missing you already lah bird. Come back soon will you please. Will be heading to Lil India tmr for my eyebrown threading. Since yewtee threading sucks. Booohoo

On a sad note. Will not receive any calls nor text messenges from dearest since he will be away in the taiwan jungle for 3 days. Jumpe tarzan punye bini. Baekk :)

2010-04-10T23:22:00.002+08:00

I am just lazy to find a nice photo to go along with the next update but then again this was the picture taken secretly using dearest camera. I think the person who snap this picture was wazan the slenge boy, ADLEYN NUR AMELINA'S DATE!! This was also my first time going out and meeting them ALL. I was suppose to meet brother gun but ended up with them too. & that was how i meet him MY DEAREST GELAP GAGAP KEKASIH :):)

Ignore those lines above. Macam tak perlu gituk. But i feel like too. LOL! Had a beautiful conversation with mum just now. We talked about everything. & that is when the soalan cepu emas came out from mum's mouth. How i get to know dearest. Told her the whole story and she laugh-ed. Kelakar sangat ke mum? I know i should have not hate him but then again sekarang dah sayang menyayang, menyayang sayang what. Lesson learn NEVER HATE THAT SOMEONE(i mean a guy) COS YOU MIGHT NEVER KNOW IF ONE DAY THAT PERSON IS GONNA BE SOMEONE THAT YOU LOVE. Like mine. Laugh if you want too. Padahal tak kelakar sehh. LAME NYE KAU ALLYSIA.

Okae whatever! Was texting with dearest awhile ago. He makes me laugh by sending a msg that is so macam nak pukol die.

Dearest: ................ I punye bunk is next to the main gate tau. Abe sebelah main gate ade beratos agknye kubur cine. Grand nak mampos kubor dorang. Ade yg bershelter. Haha.
Me: Aiyoo Serious? Tak takot ke b? Kate taiwan. Mesti lah grand2. Ape lahh. Haha. Da malam pon boleh nmpk ke?
Dearest: Yup. Nak takot ape. Limit2 hantu ngok i die terpikat jer. Pasal i hanszemm. HAHA!
Me:Alamak! Hantu pon pandai terpikat kat u ke b. Ckp dgn hantu tak boleh. Kau da mataer dengan hantu gembeng. Dorang pena dgr. Takmu senyum sorang-sorang.

See this gagap. Banyak-banyak benda kat taiwan die bilang aku pasal kubor dorang yg grand-grand. Tak pernah nmpk eh b? Cute lah kau. Mintak kena pukol. Don't ask me why i say myself hantu gembeng. Hantu is my nickname by his friend. Nak mati panggil aku hantu. See lah how can i not love this gagap dearest of mine. One in a millon ah kate nyeee. Kate dieee lahhhh. Bukan kate aku. Huhu.

Am watching snow white the movie now at youtube. Aimlessly pause the movie and update this blog. Bagos lah kalau korang bace sampai abes. Kirekan tak boring ah bace. Actually boring kan bace. Step tak jer. Boohoo.

TTYL!!

2010-04-10T14:38:00.002+08:00

Eh hie. It's been 14 hours since dearest left me for taiwan. It felt awkward but i will get use to it for the next 3 wks. & i was sleeping away with his bucuk pillow at 10.30am when i receive a msg from dearest. Why i say from him cos he's the only one with a different messenge tone. So yeah was happy but sad. He inform me that he has safely reach taiwan. Alhamdulillah. Told mum and i went to my lala land back for afew mins before getting up.

It's saturday and i am plan-less. I shall just rot at home watching teevee. I heard mum is going to buy for me that korean MY GIRL cd since the old one is spoilt. Fcuk! So yeah gonna spend time with my korean dvd. Woohoo.

Ohh yar, before dearest went to taiwan, he have put a CURFEW on me. By 9.45pm must be at home. So early ahh. Yalah since he's not around i cannot be home late. Ini kali timing lagi rabak dari yg die pergi brunei okae. When he was going to brunei, he gave me the curfew of 11. Now 9.45pm. He told this curfew infront of mother and ape lagi mak aku senyum panjang lah ape lagi. Die tao anak die tak dengar kate. Maen langgar ajer. Eh but now i good already what. Mane ade keluar-keluar selalu. Reach home late also with your monyet what mother. Pfft. Nevermind. I cannot bargain. Dah bagos tu 9.45pm. Kalau die cakap before 7 balek. Tak mati aku.

Am heading down to post a letter to md khairul bin amin aka Pisang goreng. Since he wants his lil sis to send him a letter so that he can pass his tyme writing to me. Awww so tak cutee. Aku rindu kau babi. Nak kena tunggu next yr baru kau keluar. Adoooooiii. Payau gee.

So ttyl okae .

2010-04-09T13:10:00.001+08:00

I AM SO GONNA WATCH THIS. But then again bile keluar. Pfft

2010-04-08T22:27:00.002+08:00

My blog is so mundane already. Dah tak kuase aku nak update. But then again, i feel v.bad to abandon my blog. Oh well nevermind. I shall update when i feel like blogging.

Yesterday abg boy came to my crib just before i went out to meet dearest. Abg boy told me that that babysmellbucukbucukally now knows how to maki. Imagine a soon to be 2 yrs old toddle maki all those tak perlu. Belajar dari siape ah you small kid? Nak kena tampar? Nevermind if tomorrow you come i throw you can? Taklah. Kau cute sangat. Tak boleh buang. Limit-limit campak kau kat atas katil jer. Huhu.

One more pathetic day before he leaves. How time passes by so fast. 3 pathetic wks of being alone is v.bad already lei. Who's gonna irritate me? Who's gonna scold me than pujok me back? Who's gonna entertain my craps? Haiya ya ya. Macam kau nak migrate kat taiwan ajer aku cakap macam gini. Pfft. But i still know one thing. Kau masih letak curfew kat aku. Conferm chop-chop chili chop punye. Nanti conferm kau bilang mama. Tap takper. Aku tak akan keluar punye. Keluar pon kalau perlu. If i wanna meet my friends. Jyeah i won't be home late. Pinky promise. :):)

2010-04-05T02:18:00.003+08:00

Spend my LOVELY sunday at home. Movie-marathon alone laughing alone eating alone. Although mum was beside me but still i feel alone. Because i am not in a good mood. All thanks to my dad. And i feel i am v.angry right now. The angry feeling have yet to fade away. It will fade once i gone to bed. I think

I have been feeling v.wrong awhile ago. Thinking stuff which i shall not elaborate here and needed because it's not safe to tell. Some sentence are better keep away than telling ya know. All i know is I SIMPLY HATE THIS FEELING. GEDDIT? If not than that's ya problem not mind. Sorry for this kinda language because like i say I AM JUST NOT FEELING ME TODAY. MAYBE ALL THANKS TO MISS PERIOD ASSHOLE. Bitch!

I should get some sleep now since dearest is not replying to my messenges. I think he's falling asleep or watching some movies because he didn't text me. Ya right. Don't you people dare tell me he's talking with some other bitches cos i believe he will never did that. Although i don't know but I AM CONFIDENT ENOUGH HE IS NOT!! Because SIMPLY I TRUST HIM!! GEDDIT?

So shut your blardy mouth before i punch you in the face. Damn it!!

P E R I O D ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

And dearest if u are reading this.
KAU TAK BONCET OKAE. TAK NMPK PON. SEBAB YOU PAKAI DUE BAJU TU SEBAB. TAP BONCET CUTE APEEEEEEEEE.

2010-04-03T23:08:00.001+08:00

Counting down to those few days.
Why so fast ah like that?
Boohooo.

2010-04-02T13:55:00.000+08:00

MoodSwing Alert

2010-03-30T23:28:00.003+08:00

Get well soon baby.
Hope you are gonna be fine by tomorrow.

2010-03-30T17:12:00.004+08:00

Dear Baby Ally Anndietta.
You'll be my limelight for today okae.

Auntie bucuk misses you so much.
Allysmelly kena bully. When you wanna meet bucuk ah ally?
I miss bullying you lah sayang small muke macam lelaki.
I miss disturbing you while you are asleep.
I miss your muke innocent cute nak mampos biler kena marah.
I miss you for bullying auntie bucuk.

Got this from kak yanty yanie sister profile. OMFG.
This kiddo is damn cute. Macam nak slap ajer die. V.mentel already now.
Macam neneknye. Bukan auntie bucuk die ehhh.

Geram kan. Sepak boleh? Okae tak gigit ajer kau.
Muke innocent abesss. Gerammmmmmmmmmmm.

2010-03-30T01:37:00.001+08:00

I wanna change my blogskins. But it seems that nothing attract my eyes.
=____=

2010-03-29T01:13:00.005+08:00

Somehow all this make sense. Nur Allysia is sucha lazybummer when come to house-core. She will whine whenever her mother ask her to do this and that. She loves to talk back to her mum when her mum say something which she don't like to hear. Whenever her mum ask her to do something, she will come up with 101 reasons not to do it. She is farking lazy and only know how to order.

What she wants, her mum will try her v.best to give. But she is sucha a stupid bitch not to treasure her. She loves to make her mum to be angry towards her. Well said, she loves to do things to hurt her love ones without noticing it.

AND THAT IS FUCKING ANNOYING AND BAD BITCH.

I just notice something about me. I sucha lazy bitch and i really need to kick that habit out of my life. When my mother told me that, i didn't realise it. But when my love one told me that, it really make sense into my head. Although i step yaya never listen but then again all those nagging that i receive free of charge from you does make sense.Tembus straight into my kepale otak that makes of batu dan besi.

Serious shit i really need to change this habit of mine before it get out of hand. I am not that lazy bitch when i am at my old crib. Right when i step into this new house, i get all lazy and push all house-core aside. & that's is not good. I want to change to be a better person for myself and mum. I don't wanne hurt her over and over again. She's the best mother i had and yet i did shits towards her. I appreciate her but i took her for granted too.

Sorry mum. I love you and i will prove it to you that i can change and kick that habit aside. Like people say "ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS". I will change. Not something from my mouth but i will prove it to you and him and everyone else.

I don't know how to say this to you but after putting this up here, i felt relieve.

To you. Thanks for that piece of free nagging you gave me. It really make sense now. Hopefully i can change that. I don't have that confident in me but i will try. For her and for you. I love you asshole.

PERIOD!!

* I brokedown halfway while updating this. I don't feel like putting it up and just let it be in my heart. But somehow i feel it's better for me to put this up. I don't need ya'all to pity me. It's just something that had been bothering me since this morning. At last i gotta courage to post it. *

Edited.

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY BROTHER.
May all your wishes come true. :)

2010-03-28T14:09:00.002+08:00

Happy 3rd Monthsary dearest.
Looking forward to many more months together.
I love you so much.

2010-03-27T00:56:00.003+08:00

"Always be yourself. Because the people that matter doesn't mind & the people that mind doesn't matter."-I love this quote so much :)

Time check: 12.56AM.

I am heading down to the nearest atm machine with barney since he wanne get some cash for himself. Will be heading straight home and off to sleep right after that.

Will be meeting dearest later on. Sotong masak Hitam and Asam pedas ikan pari for him cook by MOTHER. Not me ehh. So i shall ttyl okae. *2 more wks before he leaves. Fishnugget.*

2010-03-25T21:39:00.002+08:00

Dear Migrain.

Why are you being so mean towards me? Do you know that i am enduring the pain that you cause for today. After so long of not being into my head. Suddenly you start your game again. It's fcuking annoying when the pain come and go. Come and go. I really want you to go away soon cos i can't bare you anymore. Please be nice to me and stop giving me this pain. I love you if you stop. Boohoo.

MIGRAIN IS A BITCH!

2010-03-24T23:29:00.003+08:00

I am totally into this song. Have been putting it on repeat mode. :))))

"Could I Have This Kiss Forever"- Enrique Iglesias ft Whitney Houston

Over and over I look in your eyes
you are all I desire
you have captured me
I want to hold you
I want to be close to you
I never want to let go
I wish that this night would never end
I need to know

Could I hold you for for a lifetime
Could I look into your eyes
Could I have this night to share this night together
Could I hold you close beside me
Could I hold you for all time
Could I could I have this kiss forever
Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever

Over and over I've dreamed of this night
Now you're here by my side
You are next to me
I want to hold you and touch you taste you
And make you want no one but me
I wish that this kiss could never end
oh baby please

Could I hold you for a lifetime
Could I look into your eyes
Could I have this night to share this night together
Could I hold you close beside me
Could I hold you for all time
Could I could I have this kiss forever
Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever

I don't want any night to go by
Without you by my side
I just want all my days
Spent being next to you
Lived for just loving you
And baby, oh by the way

Could I hold you for a lifetime
Could I look into your eyes
Could I have this night to share this night together
Could I hold you close beside me
Could I hold you for all time
Could I have this kiss forever
Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever

For now i shall get my beauty sleep since i'm done talking with dearest 10 mins ago. He's asleep and i shall too get my sleep.

2010-03-24T01:08:00.002+08:00

Booooooooooooohoooooooooooooooooo. :(
I miss you dearest.

Time check: 03.45 in the morning. & i still can't get my fcuking eyes to sleep. Although my room is totally cooling and it feel so nice to sleep but still. Pfft. Blame it on me sleeping in the evening just now. Serve you right allysia. Now suffer lah kau. I gave up on trying my best to sleep. Guess what i did? Took mum's cough syrup and took it. Only alil. Bukan satu bottle. Kalau satu bottle,aku rase aku bangon petang lah gituk. Dengs.

2010-03-23T23:47:00.001+08:00

2010-03-23T21:47:00.003+08:00

Hello people. Sorry for not updating. I wanted to update this dusty blog of mine but when i click 'NEW POST', i totally can't think of anything to update. Well said my brain is not fuctioning too well already lah. Always lost macam gundu bird. Wait til i become slenge. Boohoo.

Anywoots, Had been spending most of my time at home sleeping. Yeah i am pampering myself with sleep. Tidur maciam babi punye anak piglet lah. Like just now. Barney, Abg and Mama watch Adnan Sempit in my room, i busy ZzZzZz. I've watch that movie yesterday wad. Ketawe sorang-sorang macam budak terbiat.

I really wanna go ECP and rollablade. Wanna ask the usual people to tag along. The more the merrier apee. But when? That's the question playing on my mind. Mayb soon. Allysia please make-up your mind.

Currently am waiting for dearest to holla me up. Kecian beruk tu penat. Sebab ape. Army merepek buat rehersal from monday to thursday for friday event. Ape event tah aku lupe. Sebab sudah tua jad memory pon ade sikit blur. Den nanti ade lagi satu event. Aku lupe lagi. Lame-lame gini beruk boleh jadi kurus and I DON'T LIKE THAT. Nabeyy. I want him to be boncet. Sekarang perut die dah hilang sikit and that's not funney ehhh. Chicken teng-teng betul.

I shall stop now. On a sad note. 17 more days before he leaves. Why so fast ah? Alamak. No need to go can or not b? But i don't want you to AWOL lei. Orang bodoh ajer AWOL.(No offense to those who terasa. Who eat the chili feel the spiciness)*Macam pernah dengar ini perkataan tap di mana yar?* How? Haiyaaa.

P/S: I gotta 22 friend request on facebook. Mixed guys and girls. I don't feel like accepting their request. But i also don't want to reject. Nevermind lah. Wait long-long. When i feel like accepting i accept lah. For now i'll just accept friends who i might know. Sorry ahh.

2010-03-21T21:35:00.003+08:00

Spend my friday and saturday with dearest and his friends at chalet. It was awesome. Thanks beruk for bringing me along. 19 more days before you leaves me for taiwan. Wait ah soon i will be giving you my handmade cupcake. Tak sedap takmu complain. Bahh~
Anywoots. Was facebook-ing when i came across this fan page of "THE FIRST TIME I MET YOU, I DIDN'T THINK I WOULD FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU, BUT I DID." What i do was simple i become a fan to this and like it on my link. Cos why. Shall keep it to myself.

See i really did. HAHAHA!

2010-03-18T21:30:00.005+08:00

Mother is being crappy today. Suddenly out of the pink sky, she talk craps.Must be from those medication that she took. Wanna know what she say.

Mother: Sham kawin dgn melayu. Abg kas kawin dgn philiphines. Abg Hafiz kawin dgn melayu. Barney kawin dgn caucasian. Gun kawin dgn cine. Kecik KAWIN DGN KicapManis.(Ne part kurang ajar ehhh) Antare-bangse family.

Die bikin kelakar sebenarnye. Part dorang ajer baek. Part aku jer KicapManis. Mentang-mentang dearest is gelap due to stupid army. Suke die ehh. B tengok darling you cakap you macam gituk. Taknak marah die ke? Lupe eh darling you kan. Tak boleh marah. *Menyampah* Oh yeah kicapmanis is dearest nickname given by bikmurni and mother. Dorang kalau berbual mesti name dearest keluar. Ape lah best nye cakap pasal mataer aku ehh. Seronok eh. & one bonus point that i saw from daddy yesterday was, he smile yet again to dearest when dearest salamed him. Ahhh what has got into my daddy ah now. Dulu bukan maen susah lagi nak senyum kat orang laen. Muke tak abes2 masam macam cuke. Dengan edan okae pulak. But den it's a good point already lah. Suke suke suke.

& Aku rase whatever benda yg aku tengah type ne takd kena mengena dgn ape aku nak cakap. Ah baek. Takd topic aku buka topic merepek. You guys have just wasted 10 second*i think* of your time reading this. Thank you.

&I think i miss that theodore boncet♥ of mine already. Padahal semalam baru jumpe. Chicken backside lah.

2010-03-17T00:30:00.003+08:00

Hello people. I'm back to update. Sorry for the lack of update. Like i say on my previous post, i'm just plain lazy to update.

So yeah short gateway trip to K.L was AWESOME. Had lotsa fun with them family. We spend most of the time walking around. But den again the weather is so damn chialat. Hot nak mampos. I cannot stand it. There's tons of pictures but everything is at facebook. Whoever got my facebook, go see lah okae.

2010-03-14T23:43:00.002+08:00

Hello hello dirty fellow. I'm back. Padahal tad pagi dah sampai sg. Saje taknak update. Will update soonest.

2010-03-11T02:03:00.002+08:00

A short gateway to K.L for 3 days 2 nights. Sexcited.

But i'll miss dearest lahhhhhhhhh. Macam taknak pergi K.L gtu. Boleh tak cancel? Haiyaaa.

Will be back to update soon okae. Miss me will ya.

Awak, Behave okae. Kite sayang awak. Boohooo. Tolong takmu menggatal biler i takd. Sebab biler you takd kat singapore, sayer behave tawoooo. Tak menggatal. Sumpahh! Nyet. Sayang awak lah berukkkk. =______________=

2010-03-09T00:15:00.005+08:00

BARE WITH ME. THIS LATEST UPDATE SO TAKD LINK DENGAN GAMBA KAT ATAS NE. I FEEL LIKE PUTTING LEI. :)

I v.semangat mamat wanna make cupcakes for dearest before he leaves me for great-grass 3 weeks for taiwan. Boohoo. I won't cry when he leaves me(CONFIDENT AJER. NANTI CRY JGK. CRY BABY ME. BOOOOO ME LAHHH.) Back to the story. I v.feeling-feeling wanna make something for dearest but my mind was so blank macam white paper. So i decided to try baking for him cupcakes instead of tomyam. Since i told myself that i'll cook tomyam yet again for him before he leaves for taiwan but my mind change setting lei.

So dengan semangatnye i ask one for my blogmate attica if she can give me the recipe. But she also ingat-ingat lupe the recipe. Hehs. Lucky me she ask me to check it online. (How can i not think of that. V.S.L.O.W mind of mine.) So yeah now i got the recipe already and the icing part already because i google it down. Attica told me. Thanks babe for answering my stupid question. I v.lembab lah part gini. Thank you.*bow to her*.

I really wanna make something special for him that is make from all my love and effort since i didn't do anything to the extend of cooking and baking for guys before. Let just say he's the first to try my cooking on tomyam. And he likes it. Alhamdulillah.

So i gotta mission that need to be done before he leaves me for 3 wks. I can do it. Confident mau ade. But not too confident. I will tell you when i bake it okae.

2010-03-06T21:17:00.003+08:00

I rot at home for the whole day doing nothing besides eating, sleeping and watching teevee. So goood. Lame-lame macam gini, aku boleh gain weight. Bahh~

I felt so lazy to get out of the house. Eva ask me out but i cancel it since i'm freaking lazy to get myself ready. Mak aku sendiri ajak aku turun bawah aku dah malas. Ape nak jadi dengan saye pon i dunno.

& aku rase aku sudah gile. I went to shahidah's blog, deela's blog and faz's blog(pacarnye idah)and tag them. So korang 3 kalau bace ne tolong lah layan aku okae. Aku sudah tidak tao ape mau buat. Tu sebab aku tag korang. Bahhh~

And right now i'm missing ♥Md Suhidan♥ v.nice. He's working while i'm sitting at home. I am being sucha good girlf lah today. Stay home. Tak keluar. Sebab alasan saye adelah saye malas. Macam babi betul lah aku ni.

Thanks for dropping by my blog. Walaupon aku type merepek kadang-kadang. Korang tetap bace. Confident jer lebih. Check-check takd orang bace. Alahh biar lah. Janji aku update sudah. Ehh wait!! Am i talking to myself. Ehhh aah lahh. Before i brag too much betta i end this post.

I miss theodore. Boohooo :(

P/s: I keep on listening to Frankie J-RUNAWAY. On repeat mode. So sedapppppp

2010-03-06T01:40:00.002+08:00

Whatever you choose in life. Be it the bad, the ugly or the best. I'll always be there for you. Rain or shine. I want you to be happy in life. And not suffer. U have suffer enough. I don't want you to make a mistake in your life anymore. I don't want you to cry for someone who is not worth your tears.

I want the adleyn who i know back then 5 months ago. The one who is not control by someone else. The adleyn who is free to go anyway,anytime and anyday with anyone. I want that adleyn. Remember this baby. If the person loves you, make sure that person accept you for who you are. Your flaw and all. If he can accept you for who you are then he might be worth your life. But if he doesn't, then just forget it.

Remember those advices i gave you. It's up to you to listen. I as a friend has done my part, now it's all up to you to decide. Make the choice wisely. Don't rush. And please don't be too SOFT-HEARTED. Without you knowing, people can take advantage of your kindness without you knowing it. I love you lah tetek besar. :)

2010-03-05T16:34:00.002+08:00

Hello world. I decided not to closedown my blog. But then again i will just update when i've the mood to update. Like now. So yeah basically i will just update from barney's belated sabo drink and drunk night & also yesterday siblings outing to catch Alice and Wonderland 3D. It's the shit yaw.

Date: 25-Feb-2010(Thursday)
Venue: Belakang Yewtee. Usual SlackPlace.

Was suppose to head down to club but since everyone is busy with their own stuff, we decided to head down to our hometown to just chil-lax till 5 am. A belated birthday bash for barney since he turn 20 on the 24th feb. So yeah after work meet kakak nana at Orchard MRT before making our way to Yewtee. Abg nor mama knows we are goin to yewtee since we told them we are goin to some club. White lie as i can say. Call diyana and abg faizal down to join us three.

A awesome night to remember as everyone accept for abg faizal was drunk. First time in our life, we saw barney getting drunk. Terlalu banyak minom. Chill laugh brawl till 5 am before parting away. Mind you we were in the masai-ness ever. HAHAHA! Blame us on drinking. But everyone was well-behave. Yalah abg faizal was the one looking after us. Hope barney enjoy his belated bash. I know he did. Nak mcdonald boleh? More pictures at facebook.

Date: 04-Mar-2010(Thursday)
Venue: AMK Hub with Siblings.

Watch Alice and Wonderland 3D with the sibilings. I mean me and abg sham while kakak and barney. Awesome movie. Gotta catch it again soon with someone. Anyone interested? If boyf wanna watch also cann. Hehs. But wait till i come back from KL okae dearest. Hehs.

After movie we went to arcade to kill some time before heading back. Awesome day yet again with the siblings. Arcade game was the shit. HAHAHA! I want more of that. Mayb when we are at KL. More pictures at Facebook.

Tags replied.

Fyqahhhhh allys! link me aye bebeh

Me: Ayte babe. Will do.

Tashah hey i saw youuuuuuuuu tht day. so lawaa la =)
Me: Ishh mane ade lawa nye tashah oii. Kamu tinggi ayer. V.sweet :)

ira hello. im just passerby. what song is it that is playing?
Me: Ohh hello ira. Ermm this song is by Frankie J. Runaway.

Viiva La Juiicy Sayang! i drOp by aje! hehes. last lOng with bOify. pape calling-calling i Okae. hehes. muaacks!
Me: Hello sayang. Gee thanks for the wish. Yeah ape ape calling okae. Rindu ne nak berbuall. Hehs. Banyak sangat topic. Hehs.

мıℓу i miss you more la syg oiiiiiiiiiii
Me: Hehs. Yalah yalah. Rindu ne. Biler nak jumpe ehh.

EERAH aku suke lagu kau. blh berdansa ! HAHA
Me: HAHAHAHA! Joms joget. Hehs

2010-03-03T23:49:00.001+08:00

I don't see the need to blog right now. I think i shall shut-down this blog. Will think about that.

2010-03-02T00:21:00.004+08:00

Ooooooohhhh

So easy...
To forget...
All of...
The little things we do
Like calling for no reason
Just to say the words... baby I love you
I know lately I've been busy
But second doesn't go by without you crossing my mind.

It's been so long
Since we had time
Lets take a day and make it right
Just take my hand fall in love with me again

Lets run away to the place where love first found us
Lets run away for the day don't need anyone around us
When everything in love gets so complicated it only takes a day to change it
What I have to say can't wait... all I need is a day so lets runaway
Lets runaway... just for the day
Runaway
Runaway

Girl you've been so patient spending nights alone and not complaining
But I make it I'll tell you
And I promise today I wont keep you waiting.
Please give me this one chance
To remind of you of everything we had
I wont give up I'm too much in love and I want you to know that
Just take my hand fall in love with me again...

Lets run away to the place where love first found us
Lets run away for the day don't need anyone around us
When everything in love gets so complicated it only takes a day to change it
What I have to say can't wait... all I need is a day so lets runaway
So lets runaway for the day and I'll give everything in this moment
And I promise to make everyday just like today

Lets run away to the place where love first found us
Lets run away for the day don't need anyone around us
When everything in love gets so complicated it only takes a day to change it
What I have to say can't wait all I need is a day so lets runaway

I totally love this song by Frankie J. Thanks dearest for asking me to listen to this song. I fall in LOVE with it instantly.

Ohh yah.

Happy belated 2 mths together dearest. Wish for many more mths yrs and more with you. I love you so much.

B, i nak pergi marina barrage lagi boleh tak? Nak pergi dgn you ajer. Boleh boleh. Before i pergi KL in two wks time okae?

2010-02-27T00:33:00.001+08:00

I will be back to update pretty soon. Just stay tune alright.
Lots of pictures to be update. See when my mood is around.

2010-02-23T09:48:00.003+08:00

J U S T A N O T H E R R A N D O M P O S T O F M I N E!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kepada sesiape yang suke sangat buat mulot pasal orang laen, i guess you better stop being sucha irritating motherfucker will you? It really pissed me off when someone who is close to me and i had already treat him/her like my own brother/sister is being badmouth by some motherfucker bitch. Although what you say is true, but you should just keep that to yourself and not tell others. I know you are sucha despo to get her/him back, but what will you get by badmouth about it? You love her/him but you badmouth about the person you love? By doing that you are being sucha hypocrite ya know. I ain't pointing fingers to anyone. Just another tot from my kepale otak.

And ohhh to my haters. If you hate me so much that you can't even look at my face. I guess it's betta you leave this page. By clicking the X button.

I DON'T GIVE ANYONE A REASON TO HATE ME.
THEY CREATED THEIR OWN LIL DRAMA OF PURE JEALOUSY OUT OF ME.
AND THAT IS SUPERB AWESOME.

2010-02-22T10:14:00.003+08:00

To the guy with the STUPID GREEN t-shirt.

Happy 18 birthday adekku cineee. May all your wishes come true. Remember what i advice u alright. Me and adleyn will always be here for you. Same goes to the rest of the crew. Enjoy being LEGAL okae. Tap takmu lupe aku. Sebelum aku TAMPAR kau pergi Newyork.

P/s to FRENDY: Sekarang sudah legal. Bila lagi mau hilang ____________________? HAHAHA!

2010-02-21T21:06:00.003+08:00

This video is taken during breaktime just now at work. Abang was feeling-feeling AnuarZain singing to jeslyn for the fun of it. As he knows i will not entertain his craps when im full.

My mood is currently not so nice already. I'm v.tired and i shall soon get into bed. Mayb before that i shall call dearest. As i miss that kekasihgelap. Working again tmr and tuesday.

2010-02-20T22:28:00.002+08:00

Hello people. Been busy for sometime. Sorry for the late update. Let me just summarise what i did yesterday since it's my off day.

Ditch dance last minute since dearest wanna watch movie.
Went to Orchard Cineleisure to catch "THE WOLFMAN". *7/10*
Stupid LIONDANCE at cineleisure. BENCI BENCI BENCI. Paisehh sebab dearest nmpk aku takot nak mampos dgn itu liondance. Diam ehhh b.
Meet gun& friend at FarEast.
Karaoke session over at Cash Studio til 11.
Off home.

A simple last minute meetup with dearest and in between meet up with brother gun. Dearest and myself wear the same top. Suke suke sukee.

& thanks baby for buying for me the Pringles Seaweed. Hehs. Suke suke suke.

Will be bck soon.

2010-02-15T23:36:00.004+08:00

Body ache is sucha killer. I dun even know what i did till had this body ache. I tot it will be okae after a nap. But the pain is getting worst. But still i gotta endure this pain. By tmr morning if the pain is still there, i shall ditch work. I don't give a two woots to whoever already. I work-work till i forget my own health. Baekkk.

On the other hand, this is dedicated to those ladies/gentlemen who hate me to the core for no fcuking reason, please tell me why you dislike me so much? You can hate all you one lah. Cos i know i don't own anyone a living. And i don't steal mak kau ke bapak kau ke sis/bro kau ke atao mataer kau seribu kali pon. So yeah don't hate me for no reason. Don't judge a book by its cover. Don't hate me just because you saw me once and my face is all macam bullshit. Because KAU TAK KENAL AKU!! I am so used to people dislike me. Orang cakap HATERS MAKES ME FAMOUS. Betul tak betul kawan-kawan? Buat ape nak pretend to be someone who people will love. Might as well BE YOURSELF. Orang suke tak suke tu letak tepi ahh kann. Kalau kau PERFECT sangat sampai takd orang pon benci kau den im okae with it lah. Not as if im gonna steal anyone from you.

I won't be tolerating any craps from anyone from now on okae. Enough is enough. I was too kind back then. So no more allysia good good ehh. You stabbed me from the back, i will make sure i make ur life more worst then that. Geddit? But im sure im gonna ignore all this shit. Cos dearest told me soo. Bahh~

Now tell me what you gain from disliking me?

2010-02-15T14:52:00.003+08:00

Hello people. My blog is getting mundane now. Either im too busy with work & family & boyfriend & friends or i'm just plain lazy to update. It's my offday today. Tot of meeting dearest but he had to work at his old workplace so yeah im okae with it. Since me myself is not feeling quite well. Whole body ache. Freaking irritating. If by evening im still like that alamatnye besok aku buih kerja lahh kan. I have been complaining to them at work that my whole body is in pain. So yeah they will understand one for sure.

Speaking of which. We work for orang gila yesterday since our only outlet kena buka. Imagine us working. Where else everyone is having their holidays. But the sales are superb good yesterday. I think because of the customers lahh. Terima kaseh. Bahh~

I shall end now. I need some rest. Lemah ape aku skrg. Update again when i have the time.

2010-02-12T01:16:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to you. Happy birthday to you. Happy birthday to Adleyn baby. Happy birthday to you.

Happy 19 to you baby. Wish you all the best in your future life. Hope you like the present i gave you alright. *You know i know, syam nigga and frendy knows*. Just remember that whatever happens, i'll always be here for you alright hunns. Don't be sad alright. Nanti mesti die wish you. Nanti we go drink and drunk okae. 20th onn babyyyyy. Let's party! I love you so muchhh bitch.

On the other hand, im working afternoon shift later on. And im still wide awake. Great. I shud get my ass off to bed now. Nyet!

I miss my theodore. Bahh~

2010-02-10T23:16:00.003+08:00

I edited this just now when i was bored at home. Yeah today is my off day. Stayed at home the whole day. Wash off my clothes yg berlambak nak mampos. Den just slack with barney and abg at home. It felt so nice to be at home on a weekday.

Get my pay already. But still have not touch it. See lah when i wanna touch my money. Since my atm is with dearest. Mesti korang pelik kan kenape we decided to switch atm card. Nanti kan leceh. Memang leceh tap it's good enough for us. Since he knows aku forever cannot keep money. Macam die jgk. So itu sebab we switch atm card. So we can't use that money on benda benda tak PERLU nak mampos. Pandai kan otak. Need to transfer him the amount that he wanted for those perlu stuff. We listdown okae ape kite nak buat dgn duit tu. Actually die sorang ajer lah. Only my money i don't wanna kacau. Mayb i shall get treat him when we went out for a date mayb. Nyehhh.

Ohh yar. Army cheat dearest feeling lahh. Fcuk army lahhh. B i maki army for you already.

I shall get some sleep now. Im tired. 2 afternoon and 2 morning. Monday off. Yarness to that.

2010-02-09T00:41:00.001+08:00

Lawa tak sayer buat? Tak lawa tu korang punye pasal.
Sebelum aku tampar korang pergi NewYork baru tao.
Nabeyyy.

Will be back soon. Malas nak update.

2010-02-04T00:02:00.002+08:00

I'M UPDATING IN MALAY AND ENGLISH. CONSIDER ROJAK MAMA $3 TODAY COS I V.MALAS WANNA UPDATE IN ENGLISH!!!

Hello people. My off was spend nicely at home. Yeah you must say "Bored ape off day duduk rumah." Best bodoh off day duduk rumah tido macam babi. Mane korang tao aku punye susah. But i ain't sitting down at home tmr. As im fetching dearest back from camp. Jumpe lagi. Sayeee sukeee.

Anyw, just to share with you people something. About dearest. Was texting him something just now. I was telling him that i miss my bantal busuk. The pink big bantal busuk is back with him since he come back already apeee. So owner tukar ganti lahh. Then i was telling him that conferm the bantal busuk don't have my smell already since he's sleeping with it. Yet he told me that bantal busuk baru dengan die aku dah nak amek balek. So blahblahshit. I was replying something like this.

Me: Yalah. Kasi bantal busuk i 10 tahun kat you pon tak cukop b.
Him: Hehe. Lau 10 tahun i da takya pelok bantal busuk b. I da ble pelok you.
Me: *i forget what i text him cos i delete my sent item already. I think something like* Ehhh kenape pulak? *I think only ahh. Short term memory masih ade.*
Him: Sebab lagi 10 tahun i dah nikah dgn you.
Me: *I lupe again* Ohh yar hor. Den can throw away ah the bantal busuk like that.
Him: Tak. Nanti bantal busuk tu kasi anak kite kot. Nanti die da besar blg die bantal tu legend. haha.
Me: *i forget again* Lepas tu kite buat museum eh b? Letak bantal busuk.
Him: Set. Buat display kat ruma.

Bagos kannn aku dapat mataer macam gini. Mintak kena hiakdush ajer dgn aku. Ade bantal busuk ade legend. Nabeyy. Mind our text msges. We always text like that. Full of craps. Abehs takkan nak jiwang 24/7 kan. We wanna be diff from other couple. We couple gile kan b? You ajer i tak okae. :)

Pardon me for forgetting what i text him cos i gotta delete my sent item if not msg cannot masok lei. I was otp with adleyn and nigga when i text bf so they were listening to what i told them. And ofcos lah they were laughing. Kelakar sangat ke ahh? Tampar p nepal korang due nanti. I even told them about dearest getting drunk yesterday and he texted me something which i can LOL-ed.

I was merely told him that i wanna sleep. Then he replied back. I tot he only say okae b goodnight or something. Melalut pulak ini matrep.

Him: Ok b. Goodnight. I love you so much!! May our relationship last long. I love you.*sampai 4 kali die repeat kat msg*.
Me: Dah sah you mabok. I tao b.
Him: B. I freaking love you.

Yet again i know die sudah mabok sebok so i text gun asking him to take good care of edan. Cos i know my brother can harap one. Thanks brother. :) That's why i put at facebook "Orang mabok msg CUTE". Because my bf is NOT cute. Bahh~

Enough bragging. I wanna sambung watch ape cerita aku lupe. Bye.

2010-02-02T23:11:00.002+08:00

Im off tmr but there is some imp business i need to do. Don't ask me out. Babyg Adleyn shud know why kan b.

On the other hand. Dearest is freaking cute today. He fetch me back from work. Lag-lag he's wearing kemeja today. First time dearest is wearing kemejaaaaaa. But awhile ago lagi cutee. Mataer aku mabokkk. Bukan mabok eh b, HIGH can? Cb. Call me ask if he sound mabok or not. Padahal he is. Dahh gagap-gagap berbual. Smue kat sane ketawe termasok aku yg kat telephone. Baekkk b. Txt brother gun to take good care of dearest and ask him to take care of himself too. That's all.

To babyG Adleyn. Be v.strong alright. Semangat you kena ade. Takmu ikotkan penyakit tuu sangat. Anything just text me alright hunns.

2010-01-31T14:01:00.003+08:00

A short update about yesterday. Went out with twinnie bird adleyn. Meet her and Maleek nigga at paya lebar since we wanna sing our lungs out at Grandlink. Suare smue satu satu boleh tahan taik ehh. Bahh~

After which we proceed to somerset since there is some hiphop performance there. Meet syam, frendy and chita'b there.Chill at YouthPark. A great night with them minus off the tak perlu part from nigga. No need to elaborate but still brother remember alright. Yang penting NAWAITU okae.

Off to 313 since we wanna find some stuff for feb babies. Afterwhich we slack at food junction before adleyn and myself proceed back home. Since we know the mens are back tap dorang action taknak msg kite. Nabey. Padahal aku tao edan dah balek, tap step bodoh. Kan b kan? Nyett~

Some pics taken. Using adleyn and Frendy phone ofcos since i don't have my camera with me yet.

To adleyn dear. Be v. strong alright. Kalau sedeh dengar lagu yg i kasi okae. Nanti you ade strength. i love you twinnie bird.

2010-01-31T01:04:00.002+08:00

I Wonder She Wonder You Don't Need To Wonder! *Big evil smile*

YG PENTING NAWAITU OKAE :)

P/S: I had fun spending time with CREWs although dearest is not around. Cepat lah kau balekk. :)

2010-01-28T02:00:00.003+08:00

Happy 2 mths of knowing you. & Happy monthsary to us.

Whatever i wanna say is all stated in the msg which i send you. Although i know you can't receive it till you reach singapore. But i still wanna text you. I love you so much. Thanks for be strict with me at times when i misbehave. Thanks for showing me what's wrong and what's right in my life. Thanks for accepting me for the way i am. You brighten up my life with your jokes and you are v.clever on cracking up silly jokes when i am down,angry,cranky and etc. You never fail to put a smile on my face every single day. Walaupon you jaoh di mate, tetap dekat di hati i you know. Cheyyy~

I love you so much lah matrepsombongtheodorecute.

2010-01-26T23:03:00.002+08:00

Morning shift today. Although it's tired but i rather work morning than lapping. Cos sumpah lapping memenatkan aku. My feb schedule boleh tahan taik already. Banyak lapping. But it's okae. Asalkan they never disturb my sat and sunday sudah cukop bagos. Cos either saturday or sunday is meant for dearest. Nyehhhh. And and i am having a evil idea of taking MC on this faithful saturday itself since dearest is coming back to singapore in the morning and adleyn is not working. So she's planning to give a suprise to wazan. And so am i. So we together will go the airport early by 1 hour to wait for them. Suprise them lah ape lagi. Good idea. Hopefully i could get a MC by friday morning.

Short update cos i'm getting sleepy. My right eye is making problem. Hmm. Shall see a doc only on fri. So can get MC for sat. Bahhh~ Nights people.

Afew more days left. :)

2010-01-25T23:39:00.002+08:00

Dearest,

I have been dreaming about you for two days straight. Me myself dunno why i dream abt you. I can't seems to recall what i dream abt. But all i know was you were inside my dream. Mayb i miss you too much that's why i dream about you. It' funny when i tried to recall it back but i can't remember a thing.

And now i'm having this susah hati feeling. And i know this susah hati feeling is about you. Are you okae there? Are you falling sick? I am really scared. I told mama and she told me everything is going to be just fine. I really hope everything is fine there. I am worried. Ya Allah kau lindungi lah die dari segala penyakit dan bahaye. Amin.

4 more days before you come back home. I'm waiting for ya return. Finally our 3 wks of sacrifies are over. I really hope you come back in a good shape dear. I will be waiting for you at my workplace since you don't let me fetch you. I love you so much.

2010-01-25T19:26:00.002+08:00

Today is my rest day. Last minute manager call asking me to work. I have to reject since i wanna spent time with mother. Besides that, all three of mum children is not working today. Off-day lah kirekan. I also don't wanna miss out hanging with them.

So last minute too, i accompany mirahmey to bbdc. Member wanna top-up the acct. So afterwhich headed back home and she and mother talk talk. While me snapping pictures away using Mirah's handphone. Since my camera is not with me. So make full use of mirah's handphone. HAHAHA!

I am working yet again tmr morning. Then off on wed. Thursday and friday i am working lapping. Meaning 1 til 10. Den come saturday morning. And i totally can't wait for saturday lah. Cos dearest come back home already and he is going to fetch me from work. Yar-ness to that lah ofcos. Sekian 3 minggu aku menahan rasa rindu. Cheyyy. I wonder what will my reaction be when i saw him on saturday. Hehs. Cannot imagine at all.

Speaking of which, i have been dreaming abt dearest for the past two days straight. Is he really okae there? I hope nothing bad happen to him. Pray hard.

2010-01-24T00:16:00.002+08:00

Working later on at 1 till closing. Abg is not working. And totally hating it. Macam malas gituk aku nak kena pergi kerja nanti. Tap ape kan dayenye, i have to go demi abg and the kind-hearted boss. Chett. Nevermind allysia bare with it for another 3 more wks. I need a admin job badly. Like i say in my previous post, me and retail cannot make it for sure. Working with abg is great but i don't really like it. Cos i kena puase PUFF lei. Not funny okae. Nabey!

Am really hope the job that i applied for call me this monday. Please lah. Ya-Allah tolong lah aku. Mbek~

I wanna sleep now. Padahal tad aku tido. I spend my whole sat sleeping at home while others went out. The usual people is not in singapore lah dey. That's why. Now i am missing my sat with the usual round. And with dearest. Nevermind. Next wk pick me up in front of my workplace alright dearest. Sayang you. :)

2010-01-23T17:23:00.002+08:00

Miss this kekasihgelapku. 7 more days. & I miss goin out with the usual sat peepz. Takper next wk dorang balek. :)

On the other hand. Im suffering from a major headache and i hate it. Shud get some rest now.

2010-01-23T00:06:00.002+08:00

Hello hello. I am back for update. Life at work is fun yet tiring. Make new friends. Working life with abg is hella fun. Although i need to serve those typical customers yet life at work is never been betta. It's just that i can't seems to work in retail line at all. I am useless in retail. I hate retail. But asalkan dapat duit and until i can find another job den i quit this job. Although it's a good place but den again me and retail doesn't suit.

Suprise call by dearest while at work is really GREAT. Although we talked like 10mins yet i am happy. I was smiling all the way at work after talking to him. Happy lah abes. He never fail to make my day. 7 more days before he finally touch-down to singapore. 3 wks of being far apart is enough lah. Next date that he will be leaving me is like 2 mths from now. And i don't wanna think about it. Being far from him really makes our love grow stronger. I love you lah kekasihgelapku. Nyet. :)

Enough say. Adleyn fetch me from work today. We sit near suicide vally along with mother and frendy. While chilling, suddenly i gotta suprise call yet again by dearest. Sumpah aku happy tak terkate. I just love all this suprise called from him. Nanti pergi taiwan buat lagi okae. Hehs. Chill and we slack at far east. Talk shit before parting apart. Pics are with ad. Will get from her soon. So chill lah baby.

Let me just reply to my tags before i sleep.

passerby may i know what's your group name? good luck wif hip hop dance!
Me: Ermmm we are still thinking for the right name actually. hehs.

aniz relink dear. =)
Me: Alright dear. Will do.

Mr green sperm! Wah thnx eh!sabar eh,aku tampah kau lagi jaoh g dubai nanti.
Me: Yelah frendy. Sepak aku pergi dubai. Nanti aku tampah kau pergi NORWAY. Ini lagi fierce.

lily hey pretty lady! yop..sure ting dear..wil visit ur blog again! xoxo =)
Me: Hello hello. Hehs. Thanks ayte dear. Ade blog tak?

FitKuching Baby Tuu daa bsar!!! so Cute!!!! geramm jekk!
Me: Cute kan? Biase lah. Tengok mak sedare die siape kan. Hahahaah!

PasserBy Hello. You grown since the last last time I saw you...So pretty!
Me: Ermmm and who are you btw. I kenal ke? Hehs. Ish where got pretty. I am just a normal human being ajer. Hehs. :)

Okae done. Aku nak tido.

2010-01-21T23:35:00.000+08:00

Will be back soon. Penat siao kejer.

1 more wk before he come back. Suke suke suke.

2010-01-18T22:53:00.003+08:00

I is boring at home. That is why i update 3 times for today.

I just tot of something. Something which really bother my mind. I really don't wanna blog abt this but then again i think i just wanna let out this feeling which i have been keeping to myself. Sorry kepade siape2 yg terasa. Cos it's my blog and i can blog whatever shit i wanna say. U read u keep your blardy mouth shut ayte. Not happy, come to me face to face and TALK? Not behind my back bitch.

FRIENDS do come and go. But i wonder what went wrong when someone whom you are really close with suddenly didn't contact with ya for a period of time. In just a sec that person just walk out of your life just like that. I mean like wow eh. When you are in need, you find that person. When you are okae, you just leave that person just like that. I mean you must be really something lah. Carik kawan biler susah. Biler senang semua hilang.

Yeah i know im jobless and i depend on mother for money but hell yeah i don't really bother abt that cos why. I myself finding a job and alhamdulillah now i landed myself with a job. But one thing still plays in my mind. Does you leave your friends just because he/she is JOBLESS and when you need a someone you wanna express your feelings then you come and find the person who you know will always be there for you 24/7? It that how you treat your friends?

Sometimes i really wonder am i a toy to most of my friends of what? I can't deny the fact that i am to kind-hearted to my friends. I don't throw my tantrum on them although how fcuking up cock-up they are? Cos why? I myself know that i ain't perfect and people tend to make mistakes. I easily forgive my friends although they hurt me ample of times without them knowing and still i be friends with them. Ya wanna know why? Cos i know they are not perfect and i accept them for who they are. I don't choose my friends. Aku kawan dgn smue orang. Yg straight. Yg tak straight. Smue aku kawan.

I think i have been to nice to my friends till somehow i felt they are taking advantage of me and my kindness. I don't really bother abt it at first but somehow it's getting on me and somehow i just can't stand it. I am not saying all but some. I don't wanna point fingers. Siape makan chili die terasa pedas nye. Cos i don't insert names here. I am just stating what's on my mind. I won't take any revenge or anything. Cos it is so not allysia. I am happy with my life and with my love ones around. Say what you wanna say. If ya think you miss me and wanna find me, you know where to get me. I am just tired of everything. Tired of being leave by friends whom i really cared about. I am happy to have great friends. Mayb my bet i dunno how to handle friends. But whatever. Friends DO COME AND GO. But only true friends stays.

I had never blog about this til today. I just wanna let my feelings out. I am really thankful that i have friends behind my back. You know who you are. Thank you.

2010-01-18T18:31:00.003+08:00

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This is what happen when you have crazy friend like Frendy. Boleh jadi gile. Lagi if adleyn ade. Lagi gile.

Will be meeting adleyn and frendy bsok. As i need to sign some agreement over at Tamp area for my working place. And then i think i shall meet those two gila babi. Don't ask me where im working. Go find me yourself okae. Siape yg tao aku nak start keje kat mane diam2.

2010-01-18T00:38:00.004+08:00

I know this is so tak perlu but i wanna blog lei. My pasal lah cann. Dearest called on saturday. Happy tak terkate okae. My reaction to his call. PRICELESS. I was still in a shocked mode when i was talking to him. Cos i don't expect him to call me. Cos we make a promise to bertahan for 3 long wks of not talking or texting. So yeah i think somehow he kalah lah. Blueks. I menang ah. He call the house and mama pick up. So he was like 'maaaaaa.edan neee'. Mintak kena hiakdush ajer ini matrepsombong berbual dgn mama. And ofcos mama complain to him abt me being not me. Misbehave lah katekan. And ofcos when he call me up, aku kena nag abes-abes. Lucky he was on the phone with me so okae lah baby. Tak teruk kena marah cos he rindu mahh. Ask him abt brunei and stuff. Good news for me. Dearest is coming back this 30th. Nak tipu lah. He don't wanna tell me actually. Nak buat suprise lah katekan. But tak menjadi lor. Cos he rindu me already like how i rindu him. Chett~ And i am so gonna fetch him on the 30th. Along with mama since mama wanna meet him and brothergun. Yarnesss to that. 5 pagi eh i reach airport okae b? I am so looking forward to it. Hehs. Miang.

On the other note, Dance practice was totally fun. Chill over at ad crib and off to the nearest hall to dance. Chatted about lots of stuff including adleyn complicated love life. All of us gave a piece of our advice including sham as he is the oldest amoung us and die makan garam dulu dari kite and i think somehow some sense went into her mind.

To adleyn baby. Do make your decision wisely. You've got two long weeks to think before he come back from brunei. INGAT TAKMU MENYERAH. FIGHT FOR YOUR RIGHT ALRIGHT. I tau u takot to get hurt again but trust me baby although it hurts now but it's gonna worth it later. I'm always here for you alright. Giving you all the advices you need. Edan and gun is always there for you and so are the rest. So chill ayte. B i tao you kuat. Have that self-confident in yourself. I love you so much babygirl.

I need a break. I wanna sleep with dearest baju now. I miss you baby. 13 more days. I wanna fetch you you you. And only you cos i only need you you and only you. Nak bau ketiak. Yummyyummyumm. Nights people.

Ohh yar. Hello MR GREEN SPERM. Want me to find for you a valentine date kan? I post here also ahh. Mane tao ade orang sudi nak date with you. Hehs. Bah~ Chill alright. Don't tampar me go nepal okae. CHINA cann. :)